Begum's Mind

Pas de trois ˌpä də ˈtwä/ noun noun:  pas de trois ; plural noun:  pas de trois a dance for three people. You like them, they like you (so you thought), but you know they’re still stuck on their ex . Wtf to do? This seems to be so common as I’ve gotten older. It’s like you meet someone who seems right in so many ways, but then you find out down the line that they have been semi-unavailable because they still have these tired ass feelings for an ex. Now, instead of the situation you two have growing and flourishing, you have to dance around a third person with hopes that it’ll fizzle on their end, or that you’ll possibly show them that you’re better than the last and to move on with you. (Whomp.) This now has become an issue. Instead of a thrilling tango meant for two, this has become a deadly pas de trois, without the elegance and prestige the ballet gives us. You are stuck with a murky outlook that only a horror film could bring. ...

Yeah, I lie to you, but don't you lie to me.                                     - Kodak Black, "No Flockin'", 2015 So, you found somebody that you think might be worth your time. You're sick of the games people play and you've had enough of the bullshit people pull on you, and hell, you're even tired of running your own damn game just to stay up. The drawback? You refuse to get caught up and end up a fool in the end so, you still have to play the game . The game you want to play includes you doing all the finessing and the other person being as "100" as you need them to be. So, in the end, you can do all the lying and finagling, but they can't. How messed up is that? Not only can you be the only one who doesn't give your all and keep it completely 100, you also want the other person not to date anybody else. How Sway? Oh, and they better NOT lay with someone else, yet you’re over ...

Imagine this for a second: So, you're bored and your ex popped up in your head. You don't really want too much from them, but you kinda, maybe, just a little miss them (but not like that). Then, you remember exactly why you don't even need them back in your life, but you kind of want to hit them up for no real reason. So, now you're thinking, "I should text them or something..." *Cue the idea to ruin their day*... End Scene . Well, in a lighthearted spirit, I found myself wanting to write about how to fuck up your ex's day (why not? Vday is coming up!). After some screenshot laden textual banter with my girls one morning, I realized an ex seems to truly know how to get under your skin with just about anything they do . If you ever had a thought to want to hit up an old flame and ruin their life for a few days or some hours due to endless thoughts of you, here are a few ways: How To: Ruin Your Ex's Day  ('cause it's fun to b...

...If You Wanna Go Somewhere ________________________________ At this point in life I think a lot of us spend too much time worrying about what our place/purpose in life is supposed to be. I mean, we aren't completely crazy for thinking about it, right? When we were in elementary we were always asked what we wanted to be when we grew up. Junior high rolled around and we suddenly had to think about possible talents we had that could boost our possibilities of getting into a college. Do you start sports? Should you play an instrument? Will you dance or cheer? High school made its way into your life and suddenly you were being ranked by your gpa and separated by your social class. Now, you've graduated or you're near it and you're wondering: well, what are my talents, what social class am I now? Is my gpa good enough to rank me in a job I want? Were these loans even worth it?! (Personal opinion: no, fuck those things! Lol) For a few lucky ones who got to snag...

  ...From a happily single person   ( because I can’t give you relationship advice, right? )  So it’s 2017 and you’re still single . You logged on to your Facebook or Instagram and saw all the happy holiday proposals and I know all you could think about was, “Whoa, they were in a relationship? But they were all up in my DM’s!” So you probably begrudgingly hit that “like” button or said “Congrats! 😍” as you cried on the inside. Alas, you’re inching towards 30 and you’re being reminded of how single you really are. You lonely mf, you. I’m here to let you know: It’s really going to be okay . Being single is great, you’re just doing it wrong! (‘Cause I said so!) Hold on to your britches and swallow your pride, because I have some advice for you on how to be single. My 5 Flawless Tips to Being Single and Happy as F***! (so you can get out of bed with a smile because you went to bed not getting cheated on; you woke up like this!) Stunt On Your E...

I May Be O B S E S S E D ______________ If Twitter could talk back to me, that’s exactly what it would say I am: obsessed. A few months back I deleted all social media apps off of my phone except for Twitter (I hadn’t felt the need to since 1. I didn’t usually feel twitter consumed most of my time 2. the person I was avoiding raaaarely tweeted LOL). I’m happy I did it. I hadn’t realized how much twitter was actually alive and well before, so it opened that back up for me. I had gotten sucked into sharing video after video on Facebook, the enjoyment of opening and closing my Instagram to see people post their alluring photos, and I was totally annoyed with snapchat’s dark hole that sucked me in and had me feeling like the world truly wanted to see what I did with my life every second. It was all so addicting. No, seriously, I double tap in my text messages on accident or look for a like button on accident (shout out to Apple who now lets you react to messages lol). I enjoy...